Woozle/Jenny/Dear Ghost-Jenny/2018/08/03

Dear Ghost-Jenny,

I feel like you've been whispering positive things at me lately. Thank you.

I can finally do a lot of the things you always wanted me to do. You wanted me to find other friends, and I've found a lot of really nifty people I could call friends. I think you'd like them. I think there were other things... I'm just kind of sensing that you like the direction I've been going in -- and that even though you'd still have a hard time dealing with some of my quirks, between the two of us we've evolved enough that it wouldn't be a barrier to friendship; it would just be a challenge, as friendship often is.

I don't know how many of them call me "friend", but certainly some of them do. Charlotte calls me "Ma", which I find amusing in a way that is ironic without being cynical, if that makes any sense.

I was going to ask you if we could go for a walk in the woods sometime, but thinking about it I realized that your absence would hurt too much and I'd just get sad again. I need to find some way to have IRL friends again, and then I can bring you along without missing you like a red-hot poker to the stomach.

That seems to be all the useful things I had to say, so closing for now.

Ohwait, one more thing. I was thinking the other day about the word "love" and how for the longest time I was unsure if it was the right word to describe my feelings for you. I finally worked out that my feelings for you are large enough that whatever "love" means, it's definitely encompassed by those feelings. I don't know what the rest of it is called.

Love (and the rest of it) always,

Woozle (TMPWWSToBPoPaPTiPL)

P.S. The initials I signed off with in a couple of recent emails include your initials -- Woozalia N.J.R.H. Staddon. I didn't even realize it until Sandy pointed it out. I can only think that's why they felt somehow right?