Woozle/Jenny/note/010

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I'm going to format this one a little differently, because it's so long... first, sources without comments are here (including scans). The rest of this page will be pieces of her note (transcribed) with my comments interspersed. Where there's a specific fragment I'm responding to, I'll mark it up like this. I've included links in the transcript for more information about things she references, where I didn't have any comments to add.

[ EDITING CURRENTLY IN PROGRESS]

I'm also splitting it up into multiple parts.

Part 1: Jenny's boyfriend, and they're all just normal girls (uh-huh)
Part 2: Victor Zinn and psychoanalysis
Part 3: my physical presence is now ok; parental occupations; pinning down ideas

[TO DO: SINGLE-PAGE VIEW, AND NAVBARS]

Why are you so out and out against religion? Is there a logical reason for your dislike of it? You sick of it? Think it's not the answer? I'm sometimes against the religion we have – the practical stuff. The spiritual stuff wasn't meant for us to talk about anyway.

I need to write a great deal more about this, stretching from before the Jenny-era until long after it.

At the time, though... I had been raised without religion and had kind of gotten the idea that nobody sane really believed that stuff anymore; there was no reason to take it any more seriously than Greek or Norse mythology. I also had the sense, on some level, that it was being used to constrain and control Jenny, which (naturally) was deeply upsetting. I don't think I articulated this feeling very well, though; I was still stuck in logic-based justifications – things had to make sense.

I mean, yes, a lot of things that don't make sense really should – but (I now understand) it's sometimes okay when they don't. Some things, like art or feelings, don't have to be something you can analyze concretely in order to be valid, and sometimes things that make sense can be very difficult to reduce to a series of logical statements. "Making sense" is not always a necessity, and logical analysis isn't always a requirement for making sense.

It's when things that don't make sense are actually in conflict with things that do make sense – when someone else's sense says "you must do this and not that", while your own sense says this is ridiculous – that you may need to pick apart what goes into each respective idea of "sense" to see what it's made of.

[WORKING HERE]

Chris told me to tell Cindy to go to hell "She has no right to even question your actions." I've got to calm him down a bit. He doesn't know Cindy. Confirmation is a fading subject – it wasn't terrible exciting to begin with.

Sometimes I think that it would be good if you got hold of my note book and read it. Though I would probably kill you.

Here I am writing a guy I can talk to in school or call on the phone, while a letter from a guy 400 miles away goes unanswered! Nick!

Sigh.

I have spent all my time writing this after school..... Do something productive.....

[ line-art that looks vaguely like "LOVE" ]
Bye for now,
M.O.T.C.P.S.A.O.I.G.O.W.T.T.W
Píczluvvík
letter transits cursive*:
sorry I kept slipping
into cursive – when
I am not used to
writing in print

they're all that's left you....__

*postscript you idiot!