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Woozle: /* 1984 */ typo

2018-02-16T12:01:03Z

1984: typo

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	I can't actually remember when we first met face-to-face after having met only via letters, nor can I remember the circumstances behind our first substantial conversation. I don't think there was any overlap between our meeting [[IRL]] and Jenny still being alive, so that must have been later. I do remember her visiting for Jenny's funeral, but I remember her staying at E's... it's all very muddled, and deeply shadowed by grief over Jenny.		I can't actually remember when we first met face-to-face after having met only via letters, nor can I remember the circumstances behind our first substantial conversation. I don't think there was any overlap between our meeting [[IRL]] and Jenny still being alive, so that must have been later. I do remember her visiting for Jenny's funeral, but I remember her staying at E's... it's all very muddled, and deeply shadowed by grief over Jenny.

	What I do remember about our first conversation is that we were still both ridiculously nervous around each other, and attempts to converse kept fading quickly into silence... until I started making pretend conversation about how "woody" or "tinny" various words were (after [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T70-HTlKRXo Monty Python]). This apparently struck a chord, and we ~~spend~~ the next hour or two going back and forth along this theme.		What I do remember about our first conversation is that we were still both ridiculously nervous around each other, and attempts to converse kept fading quickly into silence... until I started making pretend conversation about how "woody" or "tinny" various words were (after [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T70-HTlKRXo Monty Python]). This apparently struck a chord, and we spent the next hour or two going back and forth along this theme.

	This kind of thing remains my idea of {{l/woozalia\|Emoblog/2017/11/21/fun\|fun}}, and apparently it was hers as well. This is just one reason we got along.		This kind of thing remains my idea of {{l/woozalia\|Emoblog/2017/11/21/fun\|fun}}, and apparently it was hers as well. This is just one reason we got along.

Woozle: /* 1984 */ oops, slight mis-statement

2018-02-16T12:00:23Z

1984: oops, slight mis-statement

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	I remember first encountering her when she and the other Goresum Foursum (JC&E) were still in middle school (1979-80), but we didn't talk and later on she didn't remember seeing me during that time. The year after that, {{l/same\|Jenny}} and I became friends and at some point J decided that Tigger and I should really be in touch with each other. Evidence would seem to indicate that Tigger had begun composing a letter to me in July without sending it, and then my letter to her near the beginning of September was enough to overcome whatever had prevented her from finishing and sending it (probably shyness).		I remember first encountering her when she and the other Goresum Foursum (JC&E) were still in middle school (1979-80), but we didn't talk and later on she didn't remember seeing me during that time. The year after that, {{l/same\|Jenny}} and I became friends and at some point J decided that Tigger and I should really be in touch with each other. Evidence would seem to indicate that Tigger had begun composing a letter to me in July without sending it, and then my letter to her near the beginning of September was enough to overcome whatever had prevented her from finishing and sending it (probably shyness).
	==1984==		==1984==
	I can't actually remember when we first met face-to-face after having met only via letters, nor can I remember the circumstances behind our first substantial conversation. I don't think there was any overlap between our ~~being friends~~ and Jenny still being alive, so that must have been later. I do remember her visiting for Jenny's funeral, but I remember her staying at E's... it's all very muddled, and deeply shadowed by grief over Jenny.		I can't actually remember when we first met face-to-face after having met only via letters, nor can I remember the circumstances behind our first substantial conversation. I don't think there was any overlap between our meeting [[IRL]] and Jenny still being alive, so that must have been later. I do remember her visiting for Jenny's funeral, but I remember her staying at E's... it's all very muddled, and deeply shadowed by grief over Jenny.

	What I do remember about our first conversation is that we were still both ridiculously nervous around each other, and attempts to converse kept fading quickly into silence... until I started making pretend conversation about how "woody" or "tinny" various words were (after [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T70-HTlKRXo Monty Python]). This apparently struck a chord, and we spend the next hour or two going back and forth along this theme.		What I do remember about our first conversation is that we were still both ridiculously nervous around each other, and attempts to converse kept fading quickly into silence... until I started making pretend conversation about how "woody" or "tinny" various words were (after [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T70-HTlKRXo Monty Python]). This apparently struck a chord, and we spend the next hour or two going back and forth along this theme.
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	I think the only photograph of us together may be from an early MacIntosh-based single-bit imaging system that [[Microglyphics]] was considering selling, of which I have only [[:File:1984ish Woozle and Tigger from the sixties.web.png\|a dot-matrix printout]].		I think the only photograph of us together may be from an early MacIntosh-based single-bit imaging system that [[Microglyphics]] was considering selling, of which I have only [[:File:1984ish Woozle and Tigger from the sixties.web.png\|a dot-matrix printout]].

			[[Category:Stories\|Woozle/Tigger]]
			[[Category:Tigger and Woozle\|Woozle/Tigger]]

	==1985==		==1985==
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Woozle: ages

2018-02-15T13:29:19Z

ages

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	=A Hastily-Written Remembrance=		=A Hastily-Written Remembrance=
	[[File:1981-09-16 Tigger 01-1.web.jpg\|Tigger's first letter to me (front)\|thumb\|left]]		[[File:1981-09-16 Tigger 01-1.web.jpg\|Tigger's first letter to me (front); she was 13, I was 16\|thumb\|left]]
	[[File:1981-09-16 Tigger 01-2.web.jpg\|Tigger's first letter to me (back)\|thumb\|left]]		[[File:1981-09-16 Tigger 01-2.web.jpg\|Tigger's first letter to me (back)\|thumb\|left]]

Woozle: more tweaks

2018-02-15T12:57:44Z

more tweaks

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	=A Hastily-Written Remembrance=		=A Hastily-Written Remembrance=
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	Somehow, she agreed to this plan... and somehow it all worked out.		Somehow, she agreed to this plan... and somehow it all worked out.
	==1989==		==1989==
	It seemed like 99% of my social life at Brown – all the people I'd met through Tigger, mostly the same class – was graduating. Tigger decided to pursue post-graduate studies at Louisiana State University (Baton Rouge) and... I considered following her, but between a very tempting job offer to research neural networks at Duke University, feeling kind of homesick and wanting to move back to Durham, and believing once again that I had found someone (in the Durham area) who could fix the empty-bad feelings to which I was prone... I (reluctantly) didn't follow along.		It seemed like 99% of my social life at Brown – all the people I'd met through Tigger, mostly the same class – was graduating. Tigger decided to pursue post-graduate studies at Louisiana State University (Baton Rouge) and... I considered following her, but between a very tempting job offer to research neural networks at Duke University, feeling kind of homesick and wanting to move back to Durham, feeling like my clinginess was ruining another friendship with someone I'd met at Brown, and believing once again that I had found someone (in the Durham area) who could fix the empty-bad feelings to which I was prone (source of said clinginess)... I (reluctantly) didn't follow along.

	I packed up everything in the station wagon and drove down to Durham in a pre-dawn snowfall on December 31. (A car spun out of control right in front of me about half an hour into the trip. Fortunately I had noticed they were having trouble and added extra following distance. A couple of unmarked police cars instantly materialized out of nowhere to help; I drove on past.)		I packed up everything in the station wagon and drove down to Durham in a pre-dawn snowfall on December 31. (A car spun out of control right in front of me about half an hour into the trip. Fortunately I had noticed they were having trouble and added extra following distance. A couple of unmarked police cars instantly materialized out of nowhere to help; I drove on past.)
			==1991-2003==
	~~A few other timemarks:~~
	* '''1991''': Tigger had decided to switch to Berkeley. I drove from Durham to Baton Rouge to help her move out, dropping her off at the airport in New Orleans on my way back.		* '''1991''': Tigger had decided to switch to Berkeley. I drove from Durham to Baton Rouge to help her move out, dropping her off at the airport in New Orleans on my way back.
	* '''1994''': [[Anna Nikola]] was born; Tigger agreed to be one of her godmothers, and [[:category:Anna and Tigger\|served admirably in that capacity]].		* '''1994''': [[Anna Nikola]] was born; Tigger agreed to be one of her godmothers, and [[:category:Anna and Tigger\|served admirably in that capacity]].

Woozle: one more photo

2018-02-15T12:54:10Z

one more photo

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	I remember first encountering her when she and the other Goresum Foursum (JC&E) were still in middle school (1979-80), but we didn't talk and later on she didn't remember seeing me during that time. The year after that, {{l/same\|Jenny}} and I became friends and at some point J decided that Tigger and I should really be in touch with each other. Evidence would seem to indicate that Tigger had begun composing a letter to me in July without sending it, and then my letter to her near the beginning of September was enough to overcome whatever had prevented her from finishing and sending it (probably shyness).		I remember first encountering her when she and the other Goresum Foursum (JC&E) were still in middle school (1979-80), but we didn't talk and later on she didn't remember seeing me during that time. The year after that, {{l/same\|Jenny}} and I became friends and at some point J decided that Tigger and I should really be in touch with each other. Evidence would seem to indicate that Tigger had begun composing a letter to me in July without sending it, and then my letter to her near the beginning of September was enough to overcome whatever had prevented her from finishing and sending it (probably shyness).
	==1984==		==1984==
	~~[[File:1984ish Woozle and Tigger from the sixties.web.png\|thumb\|...and of course I had to be silly]]~~
	I can't actually remember when we first met face-to-face after having met only via letters, nor can I remember the circumstances behind our first substantial conversation. I don't think there was any overlap between our being friends and Jenny still being alive, so that must have been later. I do remember her visiting for Jenny's funeral, but I remember her staying at E's... it's all very muddled, and deeply shadowed by grief over Jenny.		I can't actually remember when we first met face-to-face after having met only via letters, nor can I remember the circumstances behind our first substantial conversation. I don't think there was any overlap between our being friends and Jenny still being alive, so that must have been later. I do remember her visiting for Jenny's funeral, but I remember her staying at E's... it's all very muddled, and deeply shadowed by grief over Jenny.

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	This kind of thing remains my idea of {{l/woozalia\|Emoblog/2017/11/21/fun\|fun}}, and apparently it was hers as well. This is just one reason we got along.		This kind of thing remains my idea of {{l/woozalia\|Emoblog/2017/11/21/fun\|fun}}, and apparently it was hers as well. This is just one reason we got along.

	I think the only photograph of us together may be from an early MacIntosh-based single-bit imaging system that [[Microglyphics]] was considering selling, of which I have only ~~a dot-matrix printout (at right).~~		I think the only photograph of us together may be from an early MacIntosh-based single-bit imaging system that [[Microglyphics]] was considering selling, of which I have only [[:File:1984ish Woozle and Tigger from the sixties.web.png\|a dot-matrix printout]].

	[[~~Category~~:~~Stories\|~~Woozle/Tigger]]
	~~[[Category:Tigger and Woozle~~\|~~Woozle/Tigger~~]]

	==1985==		==1985==
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Woozle: /* 1984 */ might as well include the photo here

2018-02-15T12:50:22Z

1984: might as well include the photo here

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	I remember first encountering her when she and the other Goresum Foursum (JC&E) were still in middle school (1979-80), but we didn't talk and later on she didn't remember seeing me during that time. The year after that, {{l/same\|Jenny}} and I became friends and at some point J decided that Tigger and I should really be in touch with each other. Evidence would seem to indicate that Tigger had begun composing a letter to me in July without sending it, and then my letter to her near the beginning of September was enough to overcome whatever had prevented her from finishing and sending it (probably shyness).		I remember first encountering her when she and the other Goresum Foursum (JC&E) were still in middle school (1979-80), but we didn't talk and later on she didn't remember seeing me during that time. The year after that, {{l/same\|Jenny}} and I became friends and at some point J decided that Tigger and I should really be in touch with each other. Evidence would seem to indicate that Tigger had begun composing a letter to me in July without sending it, and then my letter to her near the beginning of September was enough to overcome whatever had prevented her from finishing and sending it (probably shyness).
	==1984==		==1984==
			[[File:1984ish Woozle and Tigger from the sixties.web.png\|thumb\|...and of course I had to be silly]]
	I can't actually remember when we first met face-to-face after having met only via letters, nor can I remember the circumstances behind our first substantial conversation. I don't think there was any overlap between our being friends and Jenny still being alive, so that must have been later. I do remember her visiting for Jenny's funeral, but I remember her staying at E's... it's all very muddled, and deeply shadowed by grief over Jenny.		I can't actually remember when we first met face-to-face after having met only via letters, nor can I remember the circumstances behind our first substantial conversation. I don't think there was any overlap between our being friends and Jenny still being alive, so that must have been later. I do remember her visiting for Jenny's funeral, but I remember her staying at E's... it's all very muddled, and deeply shadowed by grief over Jenny.

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	This kind of thing remains my idea of {{l/woozalia\|Emoblog/2017/11/21/fun\|fun}}, and apparently it was hers as well. This is just one reason we got along.		This kind of thing remains my idea of {{l/woozalia\|Emoblog/2017/11/21/fun\|fun}}, and apparently it was hers as well. This is just one reason we got along.

			I think the only photograph of us together may be from an early MacIntosh-based single-bit imaging system that [[Microglyphics]] was considering selling, of which I have only a dot-matrix printout (at right).

			[[Category:Stories\|Woozle/Tigger]]
			[[Category:Tigger and Woozle\|Woozle/Tigger]]

	==1985==		==1985==
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Woozle: done for now

2018-02-15T12:43:19Z

done for now

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	=A Hastily-Written Remembrance=		=A Hastily-Written Remembrance=
	[[File:1981-09-16 Tigger 01-1.web.jpg\|Tigger's first letter to me, front\|thumb]]		[[File:1981-09-16 Tigger 01-1.web.jpg\|Tigger's first letter to me (front)\|thumb\|left]]
	[[File:1981-09-16 Tigger 01-2.web.jpg\|Tigger's first letter to me, back\|thumb]]		[[File:1981-09-16 Tigger 01-2.web.jpg\|Tigger's first letter to me (back)\|thumb\|left]]

	[[Tigger]], aka Ann Veronica Simon, was my close friend from 1981 until her death in 2003, and we were travelling/cuddling companions from 1985 to 1989.		[[Tigger]], aka Ann Veronica Simon, was my close friend from 1981 until her death in 2003, and we were travelling/cuddling companions from 1985 to 1989. Unlike with [[Jenny]], though, we had no substantial unfinished business between us and were still good friends – a fact for which I am eternally grateful. The memory of her friendship has been something that sustains me.

	She was one of the few people who ever "got" who I was. When I finally figured out in 2000 that the gender issues I'd had all my life were in fact {{l/woozalia\|gender dysphoria}} and that I am therefore transfemale, she was ''immediately'' supportive, saying something like "oh, that makes so much sense – you're a ''girl'' mouse!"		She was one of the few people who ever "got" who I was. When I finally figured out in 2000 that the gender issues I'd had all my life were in fact {{l/woozalia\|gender dysphoria}} and that I am therefore transfemale, she was ''immediately'' supportive, saying something like "oh, that makes so much sense – you're a ''girl'' mouse!"
			==1979-81==
	I remember encountering her ~~in 1979-80~~ when she and the other Goresum Foursum (JC&E) were still in middle school, but we didn't talk and later on she didn't remember seeing me ~~around then~~. The year after that, {{l/same\|Jenny}} and I became friends and at some point J decided that Tigger and I should really be in touch with each other. ~~The evidence (see Letter #1) suggests~~ that Tigger ~~wrote~~ me ~~first (I'd been considering writing~~ her ~~but~~ was ~~hopelessly nervous about~~ it) ~~though sometimes I remember it the other way around~~.		I remember first encountering her when she and the other Goresum Foursum (JC&E) were still in middle school (1979-80), but we didn't talk and later on she didn't remember seeing me during that time. The year after that, {{l/same\|Jenny}} and I became friends and at some point J decided that Tigger and I should really be in touch with each other. Evidence would seem to indicate that Tigger had begun composing a letter to me in July without sending it, and then my letter to her near the beginning of September was enough to overcome whatever had prevented her from finishing and sending it (probably shyness).
			==1984==
	I can't actually remember when we first met face-to-face after having met only via letters, nor can I remember the circumstances behind our first substantial conversation. I don't think ~~she ever visited me while~~ Jenny ~~was~~ still alive, so that must have been later. I do remember her visiting for Jenny's funeral, but I remember her staying at E's... it's all very muddled, and deeply shadowed by grief over Jenny.		I can't actually remember when we first met face-to-face after having met only via letters, nor can I remember the circumstances behind our first substantial conversation. I don't think there was any overlap between our being friends and Jenny still being alive, so that must have been later. I do remember her visiting for Jenny's funeral, but I remember her staying at E's... it's all very muddled, and deeply shadowed by grief over Jenny.

	What I do remember about our first conversation is that we were still both ridiculously nervous around each other, and attempts to converse kept fading quickly into silence... until I started making pretend conversation about how "woody" or "tinny" various words were (after [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T70-HTlKRXo Monty Python]). This apparently struck a chord, and we spend the next hour or two going back and forth along this theme.		What I do remember about our first conversation is that we were still both ridiculously nervous around each other, and attempts to converse kept fading quickly into silence... until I started making pretend conversation about how "woody" or "tinny" various words were (after [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T70-HTlKRXo Monty Python]). This apparently struck a chord, and we spend the next hour or two going back and forth along this theme.
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	{\| style="background-color: #ddddff; font-size: smaller;"		{\| style="background-color: #ddddff; font-size: smaller;"
	\|<poem>		\|'''Dept. of Ironic Lyrics'''<poem>
	No-one ever left alive		No-one ever left alive
	in nineteen-hundred and eighty-five		in nineteen-hundred and eighty-five
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	'cause I got you.</poem>		'cause I got you.</poem>
	\|-		\|-
	\| align=right \| −Paul McCartney		\| align=right \| −Paul McCartney, 1973
	\|}		\|}
	\|}		\|}
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	Somehow, she agreed to this plan... and somehow it all worked out.		Somehow, she agreed to this plan... and somehow it all worked out.
			==1989==
			It seemed like 99% of my social life at Brown – all the people I'd met through Tigger, mostly the same class – was graduating. Tigger decided to pursue post-graduate studies at Louisiana State University (Baton Rouge) and... I considered following her, but between a very tempting job offer to research neural networks at Duke University, feeling kind of homesick and wanting to move back to Durham, and believing once again that I had found someone (in the Durham area) who could fix the empty-bad feelings to which I was prone... I (reluctantly) didn't follow along.

			I packed up everything in the station wagon and drove down to Durham in a pre-dawn snowfall on December 31. (A car spun out of control right in front of me about half an hour into the trip. Fortunately I had noticed they were having trouble and added extra following distance. A couple of unmarked police cars instantly materialized out of nowhere to help; I drove on past.)

			A few other timemarks:
			* '''1991''': Tigger had decided to switch to Berkeley. I drove from Durham to Baton Rouge to help her move out, dropping her off at the airport in New Orleans on my way back.
			* '''1994''': [[Anna Nikola]] was born; Tigger agreed to be one of her godmothers, and [[:category:Anna and Tigger\|served admirably in that capacity]].
			* '''2002''': Tigger visited for the last time. She was having odd issues with double-vision, but had decided not to cancel her planned visit to relatives in Lithuania (she was 2nd-generation American but all her grandparents were from Lithuania), accompanied by partner Brian. The visit apparently was terrific fun for all... but may have cost her her life.
			* '''2003''':
			** '''mid-January''': [[2003-01-23\|Last email received from Tigger]], typed with partial paralysis: " I['m very, much more thana .ittle scared. Idon't want to die and refuse to die and please help me."
			** '''February 15''': Tigger celebrates her 35th birthday partially paralyzed in bed, surrounded by friends and apparently in good spirits.
			** '''mid-February''': I call to speak to her, and am told she's sleeping... and hasn't been awake much. She has a rotating crew of people to watch her around the clock.
			** '''late February''': Brian calls to tell me Tigger is on her deathbed, and that if I'm going to be there I should come now. My mother uses her frequent flyer miles to get me an emergency flight the next day. Tigger is unconscious, and does not wake up. I'm in the room sleeping early on the morning of [[2003-02-24 As Tigger lay dying\|the 24th]] when someone says "she's stopped breathing".

	[[Category:Stories\|Woozle/Tigger]]		[[Category:Stories\|Woozle/Tigger]]
			[[Category:Tigger and Woozle\|Woozle/Tigger]]

Woozle: saving work for now

2018-02-15T02:11:55Z

saving work for now

New page

=A Hastily-Written Remembrance=
[[File:1981-09-16 Tigger 01-1.web.jpg|Tigger's first letter to me, front|thumb]]
[[File:1981-09-16 Tigger 01-2.web.jpg|Tigger's first letter to me, back|thumb]]

[[Tigger]], aka Ann Veronica Simon, was my close friend from 1981 until her death in 2003, and we were travelling/cuddling companions from 1985 to 1989.

She was one of the few people who ever "got" who I was. When I finally figured out in 2000 that the gender issues I'd had all my life were in fact {{l/woozalia|gender dysphoria}} and that I am therefore transfemale, she was ''immediately'' supportive, saying something like "oh, that makes so much sense – you're a ''girl'' mouse!"

I remember encountering her in 1979-80 when she and the other Goresum Foursum (JC&E) were still in middle school, but we didn't talk and later on she didn't remember seeing me around then. The year after that, {{l/same|Jenny}} and I became friends and at some point J decided that Tigger and I should really be in touch with each other. The evidence (see Letter #1) suggests that Tigger wrote me first (I'd been considering writing her but was hopelessly nervous about it) though sometimes I remember it the other way around.

I can't actually remember when we first met face-to-face after having met only via letters, nor can I remember the circumstances behind our first substantial conversation. I don't think she ever visited me while Jenny was still alive, so that must have been later. I do remember her visiting for Jenny's funeral, but I remember her staying at E's... it's all very muddled, and deeply shadowed by grief over Jenny.

What I do remember about our first conversation is that we were still both ridiculously nervous around each other, and attempts to converse kept fading quickly into silence... until I started making pretend conversation about how "woody" or "tinny" various words were (after [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T70-HTlKRXo Monty Python]). This apparently struck a chord, and we spend the next hour or two going back and forth along this theme.

This kind of thing remains my idea of {{l/woozalia|Emoblog/2017/11/21/fun|fun}}, and apparently it was hers as well. This is just one reason we got along.
==1985==
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|-
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{| style="background-color: #ddddff; font-size: smaller;"
|<poem>
No-one ever left alive
in nineteen-hundred and eighty-five
will ever do.
She may be right, she may be fine,
she may get love but she won't get mine
'cause I got you.</poem>
|-
| align=right | −Paul McCartney
|}
|}
After surviving the discovery of Jenny's body in the summer of 1984, I came to the realization that I needed to get to a place where there was meaningful human contact if I was going to survive much longer. (Grief plus social isolation plus gender dysphoria and ADD are a potent and deadly cocktail.) After a bit of revision, I hatched a plan to go live in Ann Arbor (rent an apartment) for the summer, then accompany her to her first year of college at Brown (using my [[The Dodge|large station wagon]] to help with the move-in).

Somehow, she agreed to this plan... and somehow it all worked out.

[[Category:Stories|Woozle/Tigger]]